dace04 (10:15:53 AM): hey josh
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AdmnNtwrk842 (10:15:58 AM): hey
dace04 (10:15:58 AM): nevermind
dace04 (10:16:00 AM): lol
AdmnNtwrk842 (10:16:05 AM): lol
dace04 (10:16:06 AM): whats up?
AdmnNtwrk842 (10:16:12 AM): school
dace04 (10:16:20 AM): oh.. well do u want me to let you go?
AdmnNtwrk842 (10:16:40 AM): well, I can talk - it will just be
dace04 (10:17:31 AM): ok
dace04 (10:17:44 AM): I am wondering... did Rachel say anything
to u yesterday about me?
AdmnNtwrk842 (10:18:08 AM): depends on what that "anything" is
dace04 (10:18:24 AM): just anything...
AdmnNtwrk842 (10:20:32 AM): well - first of all - let me ask you
dace04 (10:20:38 AM): ok
dace04 (10:21:11 AM): brb
AdmnNtwrk842 (10:21:14 AM): ok
AdmnNtwrk842 (10:21:46 AM): who knows your email account
password? or - lol, who do you THINK knows your email account
dace04 (10:23:26 AM): she does
dace04 (10:24:06 AM): y/
AdmnNtwrk842 (10:27:53 AM): ok - well, I'm going to be honest with
you here - she and I had a conversation last week about you and she
said there were a lot of emails that you two had written to each other -
she also told me the whole situation between you two that has been
going on for the past several weeks. then, without real intent to "break
in," I started trying different passwords on your hotmail account -
finally, I got in, and I'll be honest - I read some things that you probably
would rather me have not read concerning this whole situation. I fully
intended to speak to you in private about it yesterday, but I did not take
the opportunity. For that I am sorry - and I need to ask your forgiveness
for the whole incident. It was not very honest of myself, and I don't
blame you for being upset and/or offended by my action. I do believe
you need to know, and I was going to call you today and talk to you
about it. But, you kinda caught me offguard this morning (and I'm glad
dace04 (10:28:37 AM): it's ok
AdmnNtwrk842 (10:28:39 AM): So, to be completely honest, I know
about the whole situation. I'm sorry for what I did. You can be assured
it won't happen again. I understand if you don't trust me though.
dace04 (10:28:51 AM): it's ok
AdmnNtwrk842 (10:29:05 AM): well, I appreciate your graciousness.
dace04 (10:29:13 AM): i kinda thought u kinda knew about it
AdmnNtwrk842 (10:29:26 AM): it was not a Godly example though -
and I regret that.
AdmnNtwrk842 (10:29:29 AM): well, to be honest
AdmnNtwrk842 (10:29:52 AM): I did know because of the extremely
contradictory comments I would get from you and rachel
dace04 (10:30:14 AM): oh ok
AdmnNtwrk842 (10:30:54 AM): and, something else that you
probably didn't realize - lol - rachel and I talk more than people think -
and we get really deep really quick - another thing is that I read people
fairly easy. I didn't actually "know", but I had a very big assumption.
dace04 (10:31:21 AM): oh
AdmnNtwrk842 (10:31:27 AM): so, in answer to your initial question
AdmnNtwrk842 (10:33:12 AM): yes, she told me that things have
cooled off quite a bit between you two - to be honest, I kinda anticipated
Sunday to be like it was for you and Rachel. Especially considering she
brought another guy to church - to be blunt, I don't think that was very
kind and sensitive, but - I also tried to warn both of you about the
situation before it occured. She didn't say anything negative about you
yesterday though. she just kept asking me if I had talked to you or knew
what was going on with you.
dace04 (10:33:42 AM): oh
dace04 (10:33:52 AM): so she didn't tell you what was with tha
guy whome she brought?
AdmnNtwrk842 (10:34:07 AM): of course, I didn't feel I could really
talk to you until I got the email stuff off my chest
AdmnNtwrk842 (10:34:13 AM): well, I have my assumptions once
AdmnNtwrk842 (10:34:22 AM): ..considering body language, eye
contact, and the info from Meg
dace04 (10:34:43 AM): well if u know her password i wrote her
an e-mail, and it will explain the way i acted kinda yesterday
AdmnNtwrk842 (10:34:43 AM): why - what do you know?
AdmnNtwrk842 (10:34:59 AM): I don't know her email password
AdmnNtwrk842 (10:35:13 AM): you'd have to forward the message
to me if you want me to read it - but, I don't have to.
dace04 (10:35:18 AM): oh well Rachel and I went to
homecoming... did she tell you that?
dace04 (10:35:27 AM): i don't know her password either
AdmnNtwrk842 (10:35:29 AM): she told me you two went out
afterwards with your folks
AdmnNtwrk842 (10:35:38 AM): but, she didn't tell me that until
AdmnNtwrk842 (10:35:54 AM): of course, that was the first time she
could tell me - however, didn't the actual "breakup" occur on Tuesday?
dace04 (10:36:07 AM): yeah well at dinner she told me that she
wanted to dance a dance with Robert... the guy whom she
dace04 (10:36:12 AM): we never were dating
dace04 (10:36:15 AM): but u can say that
AdmnNtwrk842 (10:36:32 AM): oh - so you two went to the dance?
dace04 (10:37:49 AM): yes
dace04 (10:38:08 AM): well we arrived there and we took our
pictures and after that she just left me
AdmnNtwrk842 (10:38:13 AM): Meg didn't go, did she?
dace04 (10:38:18 AM): She never came back till after the dance
was over with
dace04 (10:38:21 AM): no she didnl\'t
AdmnNtwrk842 (10:38:38 AM): so, she spent her time with...Robert?
dace04 (10:38:42 AM): yes
AdmnNtwrk842 (10:38:54 AM): for what, two hours?
dace04 (10:39:09 AM): And do u know how hard it is to sit there
and watch her dance with another guy and you having no one to
AdmnNtwrk842 (10:39:11 AM): how long was the dance? or how
long were you there?
dace04 (10:39:15 AM): basicall about 1 and a half
dace04 (10:39:28 AM): basically
AdmnNtwrk842 (10:40:33 AM): yeah, I know the feeling...only once,
but I've been there done that - lol, but, the girl wasn't "mine" - she
danced with about four guys...but anyway..that's a different story.
dace04 (10:40:50 AM): yeah well she danced every song with him
AdmnNtwrk842 (10:41:01 AM): does Meg know any of this?
dace04 (10:41:08 AM): including the last song which was suppose
to be the "special" song and i didn't dance that one
dace04 (10:41:20 AM): I kept saying in my head she is coming
back so don't go dance
dace04 (10:41:21 AM): no
dace04 (10:41:23 AM): not that I know of
AdmnNtwrk842 (10:41:33 AM): I assume she sat with Robert on the
bus on Saturday.>?
dace04 (10:41:37 AM): yes
AdmnNtwrk842 (10:41:49 AM): ...thus explaining why Meg was
dace04 (10:41:53 AM): and yet when me and her ha dour little
thing going.. she coudln't sit with me at all
AdmnNtwrk842 (10:42:23 AM): well, of course not! lol - because it
would "look bad" because you two go to church together
AdmnNtwrk842 (10:42:33 AM): that's the explaination for that
AdmnNtwrk842 (10:42:37 AM): explanation
AdmnNtwrk842 (10:42:38 AM): *
dace04 (10:42:47 AM): we couldn't sit as friends?
AdmnNtwrk842 (10:43:07 AM): no - and here's why
AdmnNtwrk842 (10:45:20 AM): I believe there was a "mental barrier"
between you and Rachel because you both received warning about the
"relationship" situation from me and Meagan. You may not have cared
about what we said, but it's obvious to me that Rachel did - thus
indicating why you two didn't sit together on the bus, and why you
both acted differently around each other at church. there was a barrier
with you two - personally, I believe that was a good thing. now that
Robert is in the picture though, she will find that there is no barrier
except the barrier from Meagan - I "don't know" anything about
Robert..therefore, I really can't say anything to her.
AdmnNtwrk842 (10:45:58 AM): does that make sense?
dace04 (10:46:10 AM): yes
dace04 (10:46:50 AM): I don't care that she has feelings for
Robert I can get over that.... it's just that the dance was just
AdmnNtwrk842 (10:47:16 AM): did it ever occur to you that the Lord
may have been trying to get a point across to you during that time?
dace04 (10:47:49 AM): i think he did.... and I prayed about it all
day yesterday that he can help me get the anger out of me... and
it never worked
dace04 (10:48:01 AM): but when i wrote her an e-mail on how i
really felt it all left
AdmnNtwrk842 (10:48:22 AM): what was stated in the email?
dace04 (10:48:42 AM): how i really felt about the dance and
AdmnNtwrk842 (10:49:04 AM): did you express anger in your email?
dace04 (10:49:10 AM): no
AdmnNtwrk842 (10:49:24 AM): what about forgiveness/and or
asking for forgiveness?
dace04 (10:49:26 AM): and if i did I already went and ask her to
forgive me before i typed anything
AdmnNtwrk842 (10:49:45 AM): ok
AdmnNtwrk842 (10:49:58 AM): Daniel...let me share something with
dace04 (10:50:07 AM): all i really wanted was one dance and I
even told her that at dinner and she said she would
AdmnNtwrk842 (10:52:21 AM): ..make sure you avoid anger at all
costs - especially toward a girl, and even more so in this situation.
While it is justified in your mind, it won't be in God's. if you express any
anger toward Rachel to her, she will become very upset. I say this from
experience - heed the warning - she's working through a lot. you can be
assured there is guilt in her conscience - the Lord will have to work it out
of her in His time as she looks back to Him. you're going to have to put
aside what it is that has hurt you, and just keep walking in the Lord's will
- that's really all you can do.
AdmnNtwrk842 (10:52:26 AM): ..and all He wants you to do.
dace04 (10:54:03 AM): I have prayed that he would help me
yesterday and as I prayed Matt chapter 6 just came to my head
so finished praying and i read that chapter
dace04 (10:54:25 AM): but also thats why i kinda stayed away
from her... and didn't much say anything to her
AdmnNtwrk842 (10:54:30 AM): what did you learn from that
dace04 (10:55:36 AM): I found the lords prayer which I have been
trying to find
dace04 (10:55:42 AM): I didn't really get to finish it
AdmnNtwrk842 (10:55:46 AM): yeah
AdmnNtwrk842 (10:55:58 AM): what's the last verse that is stated in
the Lord's prayer, Daniel?
dace04 (10:57:00 AM): And lead us not to temptation but deliver
us from evil, for thine is the kingdom, and the power, and the
AdmnNtwrk842 (10:57:17 AM): "lead us not into temptation"...what
does the verse above that say?
dace04 (10:58:03 AM): And forgive us our debts, as we forgive
AdmnNtwrk842 (10:58:17 AM): do you see the temptation it is to
hold that anger? but do you see that we must forgive those who hurt
us, because Christ Himself forgave us of our hurt of sin toward Him?
dace04 (10:58:45 AM): Yes...
AdmnNtwrk842 (10:59:11 AM): it's a temptation to hold that anger -
but we must not "fall short of the grace of God" - in other words, we
must let Him take us through it by accepting the grace He is giving us -
and He will "deliver us from evil."
dace04 (10:59:37 AM): right
dace04 (11:00:09 AM): It was anger though...
dace04 (11:00:18 AM): It was more of pain
AdmnNtwrk842 (11:00:30 AM): ..and hurt - I know.
AdmnNtwrk842 (11:00:48 AM): have you released it?
dace04 (11:00:59 AM): the pain and hurt/
AdmnNtwrk842 (11:01:04 AM): have you given it to the Lord?
AdmnNtwrk842 (11:01:05 AM): ye
AdmnNtwrk842 (11:01:05 AM): s
dace04 (11:01:42 AM): I tried so hard yesterday and i prayed and
prayed and everything and when i thought i did, and when i saw
her the memory of it would come back
AdmnNtwrk842 (11:01:48 AM): it won't go away instanting - it is a
piercing wound that will take time to heal - but, as you apply the topical
medication to a wound in your physical flesh, so must you apply the
spiritual medication to your spiritual wound.
AdmnNtwrk842 (11:02:01 AM): *instantly
dace04 (11:02:45 AM): ok
AdmnNtwrk842 (11:02:49 AM): you ok?
dace04 (11:02:55 AM): yes
AdmnNtwrk842 (11:02:58 AM): ok